Bliss - Music i go to these days

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8vVkAu7DRo&list=RDt8vVkAu7DRo&start_radio=1

One could sit here and listen to this music forever and forget about the world behind.
Its really healing to do so. By the way, these are not my feet. They are my husbands, we had been to a fort city in Karnataka. Chitradurga. Its one of the most enticing place I have ever seen. Its mysterious, breathtakingly beautiful except for the town which has grown into the fort, well, almost.

This blue water is visible from the Chitradurga dam, on the way out of the town, its a slight diversion from the main highway inside. Inside the village, towards the dam, stand really massive and beautiful Peepul trees with magestic roots till the ground. Further up is the dam. It has a flight of stairs with atleast a 75 steps. The view is beautiful. Out there, get to this link, sit on the benches and listen with eyes at the water or closed. Its a heavenly feeling.

Click on this link and enjoy this blissful music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8vVkAu7DRo&list=RDt8vVkAu7DRo&start_radio=1

Enjoy

Finding me

I have forgotten what it is to be me,
I no longer recognize my voice
don't know if it's me or someone's advice
scared to see the truth,
scared to acknowledge my deeper side
the one that wants
one that desires
I no longer know if i love, or i like
I dont know if i must go this way or that,
I connect soon and disconnect faster
holding on to people who have moved away
was never my idea
but life looks scary like a bungee jump
when I let go
they say, act, take action, it's time
but my heart asks for more time
my head goes back and forth all the time
memories, present moment or somewhere far away,
have I gone crazy
why the hallucinations that one day..
I have forgotten myself
my innermost self, my breath
who am I,
to myself,
The confusion?
the chaos?
 the little moments of clarity?
the seeds of this state were put long back
when a little girl,
I long to go back
to be one with the little girl and tell her
be more accepting,
be more adventurous
be your unapologetic self
be bold, brave, embracing life,
forget the scars, it's ok,
hug them, and let them go,
But I end up in self-pity each time, instead,
It's time,
Let go
Free fall..
©malinimisra